Lazy, sexy, beautiful, cool.....

I am in a slump, lol....I have been turning appts down left and right..I am one of those types that is often only motivated when in crisis mode, lol..Meaning if I need money or the rent is due, I will work and work, have a blast and then when everything is paid, get lazy...

Perhaps it is ADD'ism at it's finest, or perhaps I am just a lazy turd(but I don't smell like one, I promise). Either way, it is self defeating and defeats the purpose of a job like this. I think that we should utilize what we are given to it's fullest potential.

I was thinking the other day.."Where is this going"..I mean, I love the work..I have fun doing it..the money is great(when I actually take calls) and it is a great opportunity for someone to save and invest money for their future"..BUT, if you are only using it to pay the bills, than what;s the point?

It seems like that is what I have been doing lately..just working enough to pay my bills and live comfortably(i.e. buy 3 six shot espressos a day from Starbuck's at $4.00 a pop..it is the little things that make me happy:) ), but not enough to make a difference...I should/could have a new car right now...There are lots of things I should have.

I think when a girl does this kind of work, whether she likes it or does not , that she should have some goal in mind. Whether she plans on doing it as long as her body will let her or whether she has a number in mind to make and then stop..Either way, I think if there is no goal, per se, that it is easy to feel as if you are drifting...I think this is true of any job with little to no structure.


One can not be an escort forever...although tell that to some of the 55+ ladies who advertise on the web and duck when they reach out to bitch slap you with their newly purchased box of Depends...

Argh..if you are a lazy person in general, and always have been, it is not going to matter if you do this for a living or work in an office..the only difference is . that when you work in an office, you pretty much HAVE to go in, when you don't want to..the job makes the decision for you..With my work, it's lack of structure and discipline affords me the opportunity to work when I choose..

Now don't get me wrong, I work at least three days a week and always make sure I have made at least $1000 for that week..But my point is that I could easily be making $1000 per day, if I chose to! And I don't mean I have to take 5 appts to do so, either...When I think that I could easily make $8000-$10,000 a month, with little effort, it floors me to think that I choose not to..It is a choice, I suppose..At the same time, allot of my requests for appts come after midnight..I can usually take two appts in the day before 6pm, and then I could take one after 10pm, but could really take allot more than that...Two appts in a day to ME, is not excessive. I understand that agency girls often take a minimum of 5 per day! Whoa, talk about a sore vagina.....