Change in theme for me and this blog

It is really bizarre reading through all of my old archived posts. The reason you only see about 6 posts in the archive section, is because I "drafted" most of them, so that they will not show up.
Now that I have reread some of them, and I see the stark contrast in my writing and attitude between now and then, I probably definitely will not repost them.

I never wanted to turn this into a "bitching blog" and yet it seems now the only thing that inspires me to write, are rants, complaints, etcetera. I think when people read hooker blogs in which the hooker complains all the time or says negative things about her clients, people assume she hates her work. But for me, the hum drum day in, day out sessions just don't inspire me to write about-or more simply put "they are nothing to write home about", lol.

I used to have so many readers and linkers and I realized it was because I was not writing for myself,but rather writing what other people wanted to read about. Sure, the things I wrote about were honest, but they were not things I wanted to write about or things that I cared about.

Now I realize as I contemplate making another attempt to restart this blog, that it will probably be a blog that appears exactly how I didnt want it to appear in the first place:NEGATIVE! That is because the negative things are the only things that arouse enough passion (read: anger, emotion, etc) in me to write about. This business is so inherently UN-emotional, that for me, writing about the normal stuff evokes no emotion for me.

I hope that I can convey my dislikes about this work, without it appearing that I dislike what I do. Because that is one theme that has always been central to this blog and that is that I do not hate what I do and sometimes get a real lick out of it. Society is what placed the belief that all prostitutes hate what they do.I went into this thinking that I would and I was surprised that I did not. I have read that on other escort blogs as well.

We will see...