Thursday, January 27, 2005

Lazy, sexy, beautiful, cool.....

I am in a slump, lol....I have been turning appts down left and right..I am one of those types that is often only motivated when in crisis mode, lol..Meaning if I need money or the rent is due, I will work and work, have a blast and then when everything is paid, get lazy...

Perhaps it is ADD'ism at it's finest, or perhaps I am just a lazy turd(but I don't smell like one, I promise). Either way, it is self defeating and defeats the purpose of a job like this. I think that we should utilize what we are given to it's fullest potential.

I was thinking the other day.."Where is this going"..I mean, I love the work..I have fun doing it..the money is great(when I actually take calls) and it is a great opportunity for someone to save and invest money for their future"..BUT, if you are only using it to pay the bills, than what;s the point?

It seems like that is what I have been doing lately..just working enough to pay my bills and live comfortably(i.e. buy 3 six shot espressos a day from Starbuck's at $4.00 a pop..it is the little things that make me happy:) ), but not enough to make a difference...I should/could have a new car right now...There are lots of things I should have.

I think when a girl does this kind of work, whether she likes it or does not , that she should have some goal in mind. Whether she plans on doing it as long as her body will let her or whether she has a number in mind to make and then stop..Either way, I think if there is no goal, per se, that it is easy to feel as if you are drifting...I think this is true of any job with little to no structure.


One can not be an escort forever...although tell that to some of the 55+ ladies who advertise on the web and duck when they reach out to bitch slap you with their newly purchased box of Depends...

Argh..if you are a lazy person in general, and always have been, it is not going to matter if you do this for a living or work in an office..the only difference is . that when you work in an office, you pretty much HAVE to go in, when you don't want to..the job makes the decision for you..With my work, it's lack of structure and discipline affords me the opportunity to work when I choose..

Now don't get me wrong, I work at least three days a week and always make sure I have made at least $1000 for that week..But my point is that I could easily be making $1000 per day, if I chose to! And I don't mean I have to take 5 appts to do so, either...When I think that I could easily make $8000-$10,000 a month, with little effort, it floors me to think that I choose not to..It is a choice, I suppose..At the same time, allot of my requests for appts come after midnight..I can usually take two appts in the day before 6pm, and then I could take one after 10pm, but could really take allot more than that...Two appts in a day to ME, is not excessive. I understand that agency girls often take a minimum of 5 per day! Whoa, talk about a sore vagina.....

8 comments:

Bozz said...

It all goies down to quality of life vs. long term goals. If you're happy procrastinating and can live with the consequences then that's good. It sounds like, at least from what I have read, that you do somewhat enjoy the job. While increasing your rate may make you better off financially, would it lead to greater happiness? Of course, on the converse side, you probably don't want to do this for the rest of your life (although you could extend your "working life" with various rejunevnation techniques, at some point the amount you have to spend vs. your income potential will diminish, perhaps not drastically but enough to be uncomfortable.
I don't have a magic wand to give you an answer but I can tell you, been a lazy person myself, that the only thing that motivates me is when I have something to work towards that I see as a major life change or something I REALLY want.

Hellish Harlot said...

Very good advice, indeed, and thank you for taking the time to do so....I have got to agree with you , about the goal setting and being happier if working towards a lerm goal....I think that is fundamnetally what it biols down to in the jist of my post...thanks again, sweetie, I apprecitate it...

Anonymous said...

Maybe this will help.

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Bozz said...

No problem. I sympathize a lot - even tho I have somewhat got my shit together in the last 5 years, I still find it increidbly annoying how much money I spend on basically useless shit when I could do some much more. But fundamentally, the useless shit is what makes my life bearable!

Miss Behaving [badly] said...

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Hellish Harlot said...

Awesome , thank you! I didnt realise all these super ladies were reading, he he!! Herione girl , I closely indentify with your story..Our pasts are much more similar than you think. Going on two years now..May 16,2003 to be exact..Thanks for reeading and commenting..I plan to submit a post today..

Anonymous said...

I was enjoying reading your blog until the 55 year old comment came up. Why have contempt for us, just because we're older than you? I'm 54, nice looking, good figure, and while not a hooker, I'm good in bed and love sex. I don't need depends and don't know any women my age who do. I wish women wouldn't trash older women, it's bad enough that (some) men do. I'm not a hag or a crone, just a woman growing older as naturally and gracefully as I can. Thanks for letting me have a say.

Hellish Harlot said...

To the Anonymous-reader who was upset about my depends comment:

First, let me apologize. I am sorry if my comment offended you.However I think you inadvertently took it out of context and misunderstood..let me explain, and again, my intent was not to offend.

My comment was not about older women in general, it was about older women who are ESCORTS, which you stated YOU WERE NOT!!!

I had a very particular women in mind, when I made that comment, who is well over 55, and who , well into her mid to late 60's, might very well be using Depends..HOWEVER, lol, the Depends comment, was tongue in cheek and not indicative of my thoughts of older women , nor of older escorts.

The woman who inspired that comment, claims to be in her early 50's, and yet by all accounts from her disgruntled suitors, is every bit in her mid to late 60's. She posts pictures that are 15-20 years old, and intentionally misleads the men by claiming to be a certain age, and when confronted with this, gets very beligerent and accuses others of "agism"..

THAT is what the comment was about.Not "contempt for older women". I think older women can be very sexy, and I know plenty of them who have far better figures than myself. I dont see where in my statement I even hinted at contempt, especially for older women of the non hooking variety. I thought I was very clear that my comment was about older women in the ESCORTING business. But nonetheless, I am sorry it offended you. Considering you are not an escort, and my comment was about older escorts, I am at a loss as to WHY it offended you, or why you thoguht there was any contempt within that statement. But to clarify, it was inspired by a particular escort, and not older women as a whole. In fact, not about older women at all! But about women who are over 55 who continue to escort..and even then, i never said there was anything wrong with it!!!

Thank you for letting me have my say!!! Hope that clarified things abit..